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So I got out of the shower and Kevin IMs me. I was excited about that because I always IM him. So happy points for that. But even more happy points for what was said in our convo.

silentfilmstar86: yay, i get to go ice skating sometime next month!
oukev 08: yay!
silentfilmstar86: i'm excited
oukev 08: you should be!
silentfilmstar86: ha ha ha ha
silentfilmstar86: you're welcome to join, if you'd like.
oukev 08: let me know when and i might be able to come down
silentfilmstar86: cool

YAY!!!! Happy points for what happened. Cookie points for me for asking. David said it was about time I made a move. *rolls eyes* Yeah, I guess so. I really hope he can drive down. That would make me incredibily happy. Oh happy day!!!!

:-)

Oh there is hope for me yet! So I finally have a topic for my film paper. I'm going to compare the style of The Bicycle Thief which is Italian Neo-Realism and Moulin Rouge which is Formalism. It's going to be ten pages. I need the grade to make it the best I can so I'm making it twice the length it's supossed to be [five to six pages.]

My Spanish oral exam didn't go too well. However, I check  my grades on Blackboard and it said that I got an 84 on my oral exam earlier today. That's not too bad. I was so upset after I did it. I almost cried right there in class. I was not perpared at all. I was very disappointed in myself. Spanish comes naturally to me, so why couldn't I answer simple questions about my family? 

I was very happy today, which is weird because it's a Thursday and I have Film class. We had evaluations today. *grins evilly* Don't worry, I didn't put exactly what was on my mind because it would not be very appropriate to call my professor a name dropping douchebag son-of-a-bitch who can't fucking work a DVD player. What was even better was that I did my thoughts in bullet points...just because he won't let us use bullet points when writing out essays. That's not all, I said "I hate this class! It makes me sick, literally sick." Which is true, I got sick for the longest time because of that class. It's almost over!!! Thank you GOD! I really hope next quarter's film class will be better. I think it will be. It's about Documentary of Film. Or something like that.

So no classes tomorrow because it's a university holiday. HA to people in Jackson who has to go to school!*pokes fun at you all* Sleeping in will be very nice! Too bad I'm going to spend all day working on my Film paper like a good student. I'm going to try to head up to the library and do it there. That way I don't have any distrations.

I went to Wal-Mart with Bethany tonight and I bought a new CD, seen in the Currently Listening section. It takes me forever to find a CD at the Athens Wal-Mart because it's so disorganized. It ticks me off. But I finally found something I wanted to buy. I came back and noticed that someone tore down my floor section's Community Agreement and several poster signs. Just for that, we will do a new Community Agreement every quarter, plus I will require room mate agreements from everyone and will force them to do it. I will force them until I turn blue. Thankfully my bulletin board was not harmed. I've been lucky so far concerning people not doing major damage to my boards. Occasstionally I'll have a few instanes where people will take out the staples and put them back in at an angle. It annoys me because I work hard and but my time and effort into my boards and I would hate to see them get distroyed.

What happened to the weather? One day I have my window open feeling the very nice cool wind coming into my room, and today I'm freezing. I woke up this morning, took a shower, and got dressed and got ready for supervision with Nicci. I check WeatherBug and it says it's 40-some degrees out, I don't think anything of it and put my little zip out hoodie on. I almost froze just from walking ffrom Bush Hall to Washington Hall. Brrrr!

People are pissing me off. There's this group of residents outside the door under my room smoking and they're being really loud. Plus I'm starting to smell smoke. Okay good, they're gone.

Well, I should be getting ready to go to bed. At least I should get into my PJs. and climb up into my nice warm, comfy bed so I can sleep until noon or soon after.

100 THINGS.... repost this with your answers:

1* First grade teacher's name: I don't remember.
2* Last thing you said: "No problem"
3* Last song you sang/listened to: "Anywhere" by Evanescence
4* Last person you hugged: Keith, because it was my birthday.
5* Last thing you laughed at: Thinking of what I was laughing at last night.
6* Last time you said I dont remember: Today at lunch....something about Cedar Point.
7* Last time you cried: Yesterday.
8* Why did you cry: When I relized I'm probably going to fail Film
9* What color socks are you wearing: Black knee socks. 
10* What's under your bed: By bed is lofted so, my desk and computer along with my trunk.
11* What time did you wake up today: 10:00am
12* Current taste: Diet Coke
13* Current hair: Parted to the side.
15* Current annoyance: Going to class
16* Current longing: For a boy to cuddle with
17* Current desktop background: James and Oliver Phelps with a sign that says "Do your classwork!"
18* Current worry: FINALS!
19* Current hate: Film class.
20* Current favorite article of clothing: My hoodie and totally awesome slip-on shoes.
21* Favorite physical feature of the preferred sex: Eyes.
22* Last CD that you listened to: "Three Cheers for Sweet Revenge" by My Chemical Romance
23* Favorite place to be: My bed...sleeping.
24* Least favorite place: Classes.
25* Time you wake up in the morning: M-Tu & F: 11am W-Th: 10:00am
26* If you could play an instrument, what would you play: Well, I can play the clarinet, but I would like to learn how to play the piano and the guitar.
27* Favorite color: Blue, silver, black, and red.
28* Do you believe in an afterlife: I guess.
29* How tall are you: 5'5"
30* Current favorite word/saying: "Those Bastards!"
31* Favorite book: Harry Potter series.
32* Favorite season: Fall.
33* One person from your past you wish you could go back and talk to: My Pop-Pop.

*FUTURE*
35* Where do you want to go for college? I go to Ohio University.
36* What is your career going to be like: I'm going to be a famous film director.
37* How many kids do you want: One or at the most two.

*HAVE YOU EVER...*
39* Said "I love you" and meant it: Yeah, but only to my family and close friends.
40* Gotten in a fight with your dog/cat/bird/fish, etc: I yelled at my fish to stop shitting in his water.
41* Been to New York: No.
42* Been to Florida: Yes.
43* Been to California: No.
44* Been to Hawaii: No.
45* Been to Mexico: Yes.
46* Been to China: No.
48* Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day: I don't really remember.

*RANDOM*
52*Do you have a crush on someone: Oh yeah.
53* What book are you reading now? None, though I should be reading my Sociology book.
54* Worst feeling in the world: Being ignored by the people I love.
55* What is the first thing you think when you wake in the morning?: "Shut the fuck up, you damn alarm clock!"
56* How many rings before you answer: One or two.
57* Future daughter's name: Juliet or Julia.
58* Future son's name: Oliver.
59* Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: When I'm home, yes, I sleep with a big bear. Hoewver when I'm at school I normally snuggle with my pillows.
60* If you could have any job you wanted: The greatest film director of all time.
61* Wish you were here: What?
62* College plans: Eventually be able to switch from Theater to TCom.
63* Piercings: Twice in each ear.

*THE EXTRA STUFF*
64* Do you do drugs: Nope.
65* Do you drink: I have a couple of times last year and this summer. Nothing major...just a few here and there.
67* What kind of Shampoo and Conditioner do you use: This Strawberries and Cream stuff.
68* What are you most scared of: Never finding someone who loves me.
69* What clothes do you sleep in: PJ pants and a tank top.
70* Who is the last person that called you: My mom, to tell her how my birthday went.
71* removed APPRENTLY SOMEOEN DIDNT LIKE THIS QUESTION
72* If you could change anything about yourself what would that be: My eyes would be bright blue, I'd be thiner, and my complextion would be nicer.
73* Who do you really hate: Ignorant people.
74* Been In Love: Nope, but I'm hope to be one day.
75* Are you timely or always late: I'm ALWAYS early. Band did that to me. 
76* Do you have a job: Yep, I'm a Resident Assistant.
77* Do you like being around people: People I like, sure.
78* Best feeling in the world: Being loved.
79* Are you for world peace: Yeah.
80* Are you a health freak: No, I'm horrible at self control when it comes to junk food.
81* Do you have a "Type" of person you always go after: Someone for makes me laugh and someone who makes me smile everytime I'm around him.
82* Do you want something you don't have? Oh course.
83* Are you lonely right now: Yes.
85* removed.. ANOTHER ONE SOMEONE DIDNT LIKE
86* Do you want kids? I'm not sure, but I probably will.

*IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU...
87* Cried: Yes.
88* Bought Something: Does food count?
89* Gotten Sick: No.
90* Sang: Yes.
91* Said I Love You: Yes, to my mom.
92* Wanted To Tell Someone You Loved Them: No.
93* Met Someone: No.
94* Moved on: I don't know. I don't think so.
95* Talked To Someone: Duh, I'm not a complete anti-social.
96* Had A Serious Talk: No.
97* Missed someone: Yes.
98* Hugged Someone: Yes.
99* Yelled at Someone: Yes, I yelled at the people screaming in the rain last night. Oh they pissed me off.
100* Dreamed About Someone You Can't Be With: Everyday.

Yes, tomorrow I turn 19! I'm excited. Of course, anything that doesn't make me sound like I'm really young makes me excited. Now if only I could speed up time and make it November 2006 so I can turn 20 and be the same age as most of my friends. Hmmmm, I'll start working on that in my free time. HA, that was funny. Did you see? I made a funny!! Free time, that's a laugh.

I just finished watching South Park: Bigger, Longer & Uncut. I love that movie. I haven't watched it in months. It's still funny every time. *sigh*

I was on duty tonight. It was boring as usual. I mean, come on, who would actually do something on Sunday night. Sunday is when everyone is doing homework and studying because they went out during the weekend. I shouldn't be complaining because it would be more work for me and I felt like being a lazy RA tonight. Oh well, it got me out of my room for a little while and made me read a little bit of the book for Sociology.

Speaking of that book, I HATE IT!!!!!!! It is poorly written and I never want to read it again. Hell, I'm not sure if I'll actually finish reading it. Too bad my Sociology final is purly on that damn book. However, it's a take-home final, so all hope of me being me is not lost. I'm a horrible student, I know.

So what do I get to do on my last day of being 18? Go to fucking class!!! Now that's not too bad compared to my actual birthday. I have class until 10pm. Of course, we have a test that night so the lastest I'll be in class is 9pm. But of course, the test part will be fun. I say that with all the sarcasm I have. I don't want to take a test on my birthday! Don't make me, please!

Can I just quit school right now? That would save a bunch of money....I'm not really doing anything. I can't switch my major because I don't have a high enough GPA. I don't have a high enough GPA because I almost failed Algebra last Winter. HEY, I passed with a D-. So sue me, I'm terrible at math. Who the fuck cares? I don't need math anyway. I know how to use a calculator. Why do I need to know how to solve or even care about trains leaving Athens and Cleveland at the same time? Great, now I'm in a pissy mood. THANKS A LOT OHIO UNIVERSITY!!!!!

Alright, that was enough bitching! I don't want to seem like a whiny little girl. So I'll write about something happy; like Sean Biggerstaff. *stares at a picture of Sean* I found the trailer to Cashback. Well, it's the trailer to the short. The feature is due out this summer I think. Oh Sean Biggerstaff. Too bad he doesn't have his Scottish accent in this film. But it's okay, because he has a British accent. YAY!!! I really want to see that movie. I don't care if I have to go all the way to London to see it. Oh wait, I AM going to London this summer. Fancy that.

I'm so tired. I slept until 3:45pm! I haven't slept that late in a long time. I could have slept later but Sarah called me because she was upset. I offered to buy D.P. Dough for her, but she said she didn't want me to spend my money. So we went to Nelson for an early dinner. Then to the market to get candy because tomorrow is HALLOWEEN! Even though the celebration of this holiday has worn off as of 5am this morning. I'm still excited about it. I'm making candy bags for my residents. I have a shit load of candy in my room right now. It's great.

So last night was very tiresome. I spent my two and half hour break helping Keith and Joe with an alcohol confrontaion in one of the residents' rooms. I wasn't very happy that it was my residents. I was happy to help though. I kept getting frustrated when I would try to answer a question and a resident who asked the question would interupt me by asking the same question. I almost lost my temper. But I didn't. My mom would be proud that I didn't blow up. Since I've been friends with Sarah I start getting very annoyed when people interupt when I'm talking. Especially when I'm answering your question.

I've noticed something else about myself. I'm able to look directly into people eyes. That may sound a little odd, but it's true. I've never been able to do that. I usualy aviod eye contact with anyone at all cost. I had a big problem with that in my acting classes. I guess to me it's a form of intamacy. I'm slowly getting out of that. Which is good. Sarah also said that I'm different from last year. Last year I was really quiet and usually sat there. This year, I have more energy, I ask questions when I don't know the answers. My mom said she likes what college is doing to me. I'm becoming a more social person. I go up to talk to people instead of sitting around waiting for people to talk to me.

I'm on duty again tonight, which really sucks! While I'm in the office I'm going to make my little goodies bag. Heh, it will give me something to do. I predict utter boredom tonight. I might start working on extra credit stuff in TCom and Film so I can get better grades in there. I think I have a B+ in TCom but I want an A+. Film is a totaly different story. I don't even WANT to know what I have in there at this moment. It's probably bad, like a C- or something.

Tomorrow starts the begin of week nine! Hell yeah! Finally! Only a couple more weeks of classes then I'm on winter break for six weeks! Those six weeks will be warmly welcomed! Too bad I have to work all those six weeks if I want to go to London this summer.

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You scored as Nicole Kidman. You are most like Nicole Kidman. You have a natural elegance and poise that is rare nowadays. Your grace and quiet nature makes you pure and almost angelic. You style is more classic than trendy, but you always look good no matter what you wear. You're sophisticated, focused, and beautiful, and the world needs more of your kind of beauty. </td> Nicole Kidman 78% Angelina Jolie 73% Beyonce 61% Kate Bosworth 61% Carmen Electra 50% Gwen Stefani 44% Eva Longoria 39% Paris Hilton 11% What Beautiful Celebrity are You? (pictures) created with QuizFarm.com

You scored as Good. You are a Good kisser.. congrats.. not many people have these qualities.. quite frankly you are lucky to be so good.. keep it up.. and keep it nice and neat..!!! </td> Good 75% Agressive 25% Sloppy 15% Creepy 0% What kinda kisses do u give? created with QuizFarm.com

You scored as The Raven. the crow... this shows that you might not feel like you have a true grip on life. you may jump to conclusions to make you feel safer which don't last. </td> The Raven 94% Annabel Lee 81% The Sleeper 63% Which Edgar Allan Poe poem are you? created with QuizFarm.com

You scored as Kelly Clarkson. </td> Kelly Clarkson 69% Paris Hilton 25% Ciara 25% Nicki Hilton 19% Lucy Liu 19% Jessica Simpson 0% What female celebrity is your look-alike? created with QuizFarm.com

You scored as Nose. You don't like to show off. And you prefer not to be the center of attention! </td> Nose 78% Lip 67% Bridge 67% Tongue 56% Belly button 22% What kinda piercing is right for you? created with QuizFarm.com

I'm on duty and I have time to kill that i should be doing my film paper. however, i have no motiavtion. DIE TIME, DIE!

IRLS: Turned ON or OFF or DC..don't care..when a guy:

-Rides a skateboard: DC
-Dresses like a surfer bum: OFF
-Dresses in all black: OFF
-Plays a musical instrument: ON
-Sings: ON
-Is shorter than you: OFF
-Is taller than you: ON
-Wears braces: OFF
-Has chapped lips: OFF
-Has green eyes: ON
-Has blue eyes: ON
-Has brown eyes: ON
-Drinks alcohol: DC
-Smokes cigarettes: OFF
-Smokes pot: OFF
-Wears glasses: ON
-has brown hair: ON
-has red hair: ON
-Has black hair: ON
-Has blond hair: ON
-Is tan: DC
-Works out: DC
-Smiles a lot: ON
-Calls you just to say hi: DC
-Is a deep thinker: DC
-Lets you know he was thinking about you: ON
-Compliments you: ON
-Shaves his legs: OFF
-Has facial hair: DC
-wears eyeliner: DC
-European: ON
-Gauged ears: OFF!
-eye brow piercing: OFF
-lip pierced: OFF

So, once again, I'm on duty. It's not fun. I hate it. I don't feel like dealing with anything right now. On a brighter note, one of my residents cheered me up with this:
Here area few things to keeo in mind for this year's Halloween Celebration:
1.) Please no terrorist or sniper relates costumes, these are scary!
2.) Please dob't have any weaponry included in your costumes. Ex: Mardi Gras beads, Timberland boots, cowboy spurs, etc.
3.) Be aware of the undercover coppers...this means if you are drinking, no matter who asks you, you are 21 and a senior...no slip ups!
4.)Quick reminder, it's illegal to go potty in public... :-)
5.) If arrested, don't fight back or run away...don't kid yourself, you will not be fast enough to get away!
6.) If you need to find out if your friend has been arrestedm info will be in the lobby of the Athens Police Dept.
If for any reason you are arrested, do not hesitate to call Rachel Cain...she will be happy to bail you out!
MOST IMPORTANTLY:...HAVE FUN!

Man, oh man, I love my residents!!!! I could not have asked for a better floor!

Well, I really need to get to bed before something prevents me from doing so.

This summer break, Sarah 2 and I are going to take a trip to London. I'm really excited. And this will be so cheap too. I can't wait until the summer now. I was dreading it because I would have to go back to Jackson, but now it will be all worth it. Huzzah! I can go on one condition...I work all winter break and all summer. It's a done deal. I already have a good amount with just the RA job. But I will work during break for school related expenses and if I have extra money with that, the better the trip will be. Hopefully by then I should have my video camera so I'm going to record everything. I'll make a reality show/movie. I think I'm a little more excited about editing the whole thing than I am actually going there. Okay, so maybe going to London will be a tad bit better than editing. But only a little bit. Holy hell, I'm not even a Tcom major yet and listen to me.

I called my mum yesterday and "asked" her if I could go. More or less I told her that Sarah and I would like to go to London this summer. I could tell at first that she was a little apprehensive about it. I mean, I would be traveling to another country. But I told how cheap it would be because I'm a student. Then mum told that it would be a good idea to go now because I don't know the next time I'll have an opportunity like this. I definitely won't be able to afford it after I graduate, I'll be in too much debt trying to pay back all my school loans. So, my mum gave me the "go ahead" and so did Sarah's mum. This summer is going to be brilliant! So now if I feel all depressed all you have to say to get my out of it is say "You're going to London!" I'll snap right out of it.

So what to do in London? The obvious tourist attractions: Big Ben, Tower of London, Buckingham Palace, the Changing of the Guard, the Globe Theatre, [A definite for any theatre major!], ride on the top of a double decker bus. But what else to do? Oh yeah, I completely forgot! ;-) The drinking age in England is...18. Hell yeah! I'll be 19 by then. Sarah and I are definitely going to the pubs. Drunk in London 2006? It's possible. What more can a girl ask for? Oh yeah, a British boy. Or maybe even my Scottish boy. :-D

David most recent Xanga entry:
First back off of josh. He is just being a concerned friend. Next you dont like how i do things or whatever you dont like you can fuck off, I am tired of this crap, and i have TOO much on my mind already than to worry about making you two happy. Alright? Good. Like I said, it is NOT your place to mold who i am or teach me fucking lessons. SO BACK OFF. If i am not what you like in a person or whatever so fucking what. Stay away from me, i'll be more than happy to do the same. thanks.

My message to David:
Wow. I'm hurt, David. That was really hurtful. I didn't think it would end like this. Honestly, Sarah and I weren't trying to hurt you or change who you are. I like who you are. You're a good person. It's just, we're not in Jackson anymore. You have to censor what you say here. There are so many different people at OU, you can easily offend someone. You took this way out of perportion and you're acting like a drama queen. Seriously, you say it's in the past but why do you keep bringing it up? Hm? You are acting like a child. You're going to be twenty years old in January! You need to grow up! You said you wanted to get out of Jackson, well, the world isn't a small redneck town! I don't think you would last a whole month in the city. Nor do I think you'll do a good job as an RA. If you have a hard time understanding what is PC and what isn't. You need to learn to think before you speak! Sound familiar? Well, it should. Sarah and I have been saying those EXACT words all day, everyday. And why shouldn't I say something to Josh? This has nothing to do with him and he wanted it to involove him. Of course, what did I expect when Sarah told you what she thought and everything was blamed on me. I AM NOT GOING TO RELIVE SENIOR YEAR AGAIN! I'm an Sophomore in college and I'm NOT going to deal with it, nor do I have the time. So you go on with your little life thinking everything is honky-dory. Fine by me! If you want me to leave you the fuck alone. I will!

BrokenDragonSong: so you girls pissed with me?
BrokenDragonSong: or should i just drop it?
silentfilmstar86: We're not pissed. It's just that there is only so much we can say without going in circles.
BrokenDragonSong: ... ok?
BrokenDragonSong: well i dont understand, yeah i do need to think before speaking yeah, however, that doesnt make me an undecent person
silentfilmstar86: No it doesn't. It's just that we have told you numerous times.
BrokenDragonSong: yeah, well. I apologized already nothing much i can do.
BrokenDragonSong: going to lunch
BrokenDragonSong: bye
silentfilmstar86: bye

Sarah 2's AIM Conversation with David: 
BrokenDragonSong: first off i am not mad, i never said that i was mad at sarah either. I dont care if i have pot smoker friends, it just seem that most of them do only drinking and pot when they hang out. about stereotypes everyone casts them, i said that the lady wasnt chinese quietly so she wouldnt hear me, it was just a random thought
Seth264435: and joel?
BrokenDragonSong: what about joel?
BrokenDragonSong: yeah he does smoke the pot, but i hang out with him on occassion
Seth264435: your italian comment? besides that, it makes me uncomfortable when you do that. and it's the same thing as drinking or smoking. please don't do it in front of me...i don't like it
BrokenDragonSong: I DIDNT REALIZE IT!
BrokenDragonSong: heaven forbid me for being human
BrokenDragonSong: and sarah isnt the only one who reads mty site
Seth264435: its something you need to learn and understand so you can respect OTHER people as human
BrokenDragonSong: i do respect
BrokenDragonSong: people
Seth264435: i know she isn't, which is why i didn't put a lot more than i did
BrokenDragonSong: well let loose
BrokenDragonSong: i am ears
Seth264435: if you respect them, you sometimes have to know when to keep your mouth shut.
BrokenDragonSong: i didnt mean anything by the comments i said.
BrokenDragonSong: didnt realize they were offensive
Seth264435: i know you didn't, but the fact is that they are hurtful, or cause discomfort in the people you care about BrokenDragonSong: well yeah, i am human. i wasnt raised near all this PC crap
BrokenDragonSong: and so what if joel has a big nose... I didnt realize he was italian...
Seth264435: and that's really disconcerting that in your town you aren't exposed to this...but this is your chance. you are in a completely strange environment...you are being given a chance that many people in your town don't/will never have. you should learn all you can. it is adapting to the culture.
Seth264435: we had just finished the discussion that he was italian BrokenDragonSong: yeah well adaption takes time, not everything sinks in right away
BrokenDragonSong: specially for me
BrokenDragonSong: dunno what to say
Seth264435: look...this is just the way we feel. we understand it takes time, just please put in the effort. for yourself, for other people, and for your friends
BrokenDragonSong: we
BrokenDragonSong: as in you and sarah?
BrokenDragonSong: why cant she say this shit too?
BrokenDragonSong: rather have it from both
Seth264435: we don't want to gang up on you. leave her out of this argument...you and she can have your own, it is not my business to be involved in what she has to say
BrokenDragonSong: wasnt bring her into it, was just wondering why it was we?
BrokenDragonSong: so i asked. but if she feels that way i should know too
BrokenDragonSong: am right?
Seth264435: we've talked about it yes, and yes she should talk to you about it, but it's her decision on when she's ready to do so BrokenDragonSong: ... ok.
BrokenDragonSong: I dont change myself to fit into whatever social group is here. i am sorry that i offend however, that is the way i be , i do try to do better, however, i dont think i should be a miracle case
BrokenDragonSong: let me be me on mtv!
Seth264435: oh stop being a drama queen. i'm not asking you to change you. you can think what you want. but as you put it in reference with catherine and them, what if you overheard someone refer to you as a "common fag" it shouldn't be said. if that's the way someone feels they should respect you enough as a human being to not talk about it. or if you had a friend who made a racial comment towards someone. in theory it should make you uncomfortable as an accepting person
BrokenDragonSong: yeah but the comment about the NON chinese lady, was said quietly amongst us
BrokenDragonSong: wasnt yelling it
BrokenDragonSong: she didnt hear it
Seth264435: still...second example. a bit different but same discomfort. and you have a voice that carries...you've said so yourself. if you really wanted to say something about it, you could give a "knowing look" or wait until we left.
BrokenDragonSong: well she didnt act offended. so doubt she heard.
BrokenDragonSong: and about joel
BrokenDragonSong: i didnt mean to... plain and simple
Seth264435: the point is: no she didn't hear, but she could have...and if you don't learn now it could happen again and they COULD hear it. i'm not arguing that you did it on purpose...i know you didn't. if you did i'd think you were an ass and wouldn't talk to you. its just something you need to be aware of so you can learn
Seth264435: i'm trying to help...so it doesn't have to happen
Seth264435: listen, i need to go to bed...i have another 12 hour day of practicum tomorrow. but i'll talk to you later, ok?
BrokenDragonSong: aight
BrokenDragonSong: -night
BrokenDragonSong: talk to you later

Sarah 2's Xanga Comment to David's xanga:
ok...this is sarah 2. sarah 3 has no input on this...though we've discussed these elements, this is my voice and my opinions. the big stuff (and the reason i'm writing this, is because it REALLY pissed me off) you don't want to be "down graded" and you don't deserve it? and that's not to one person...like sarah 3. thats interesting since WE ARE CONSTANTLY TRYING TO GET YOU TO NOT "DOWN GRADE" EVERYONE ELSE!!!!!!!!! you don't like to hear it, why do you think they do? i'm sure the lady at china buffet realizes she's not chinese...as we all do. don't offend. and you cast your stereotypes. well, remember how you said it made you feel when your friends weren't accepting of who you are? you know what i'm talking about (i have the decency and the common sense to actually keep my mouth shut--filter! censor!). you felt awful! well, why do you assume other people don't have their feelings hurt as well. this is the lesson you NEED to learn. treat others the way you would want to be treated. if you don't want someone to say something hurtful or inconsiderate about you, expect that they don't want it either. its courtesy and respect for your fellow man. your second little blurb...that is so naive to even say that bullshit. first of all, when have you been trying to make friends? classes? i never remember you hanging out with joel and his friends or going to lunch or dinner with them. all it takes is conversation. its freshman year...EVERYONE IS TRYING TO MAKE FRIENDS. so it just means that you're not trying hard enough or you are doing something wrong. look at sarah 3...she made friends, and that's hard for her. she's got me, she has theatre people, and now she's gone out of her way to make friends with her staff. plus her residence hall last year. and as for finding friends who don't drink or do pot...it's college...some people choose to party, some of them choose not to. some of them choose to party SOMETIMES. because someone has made a choice that you disagree with, are you THAT close-minded of a person to judge on that? again, do you want to be judged based on your choices and life? didn't think so. people are not to be labelled: "drinker: avoid...doesn't have friend qualities" its crap. if it is something that you choose not to do, then good! i'm happy for you for choosing a clean life-style, i really am...it's hard with peer pressure and all. but please...it does not make them a bad person or friend. if you don't want it around you, have the pride in yourself to tell them. if they don't accept it, they aren't worth being your friend. pot and drinking are not the ONLY aspects of people's lives. i have plenty of friends that do pot...i don't choose to do it. they know i don't like it, so they respect me and my friendship enough to not do it around me. that, to me, is proof of friendship...not changing who you are, but considering those you care about. don't be mad at sarah for going to LAD...i convinced her to go. she changed her mind, it happens. you knew i was going to be there early to help adam, so don't blame me for being MIA in that huge crowd. i even asked you if you were going and you said you weren't sure. now...if this message makes you that mad at me, and i'm not allowed to scarf pizza and watch movies, that's ok. i said what i think you really needed to hear. i spoke my mind, and this is what is important. you can make your decisions on how you feel about this and speak YOUR mind. you know i've supported you on other aspects, especially as a new friend. i've accepted you into my life as a friend...and not just because sarah knows you. if i didn't like you, i wouldn't ask you to lunch every other day, and i wouldn't see you at all unless you were around sarah. this is how i am with the adam group. you just need to realize the effect you have on other people, and how you can make them feel...you have the power to hurt someone. think of that when you are talking. compare it with yourself. you must learn decency to make and keep the friends you so crave.

My AIM Conversation with David:
BrokenDragonSong: ok, now, ummm what probs you got with me?
silentfilmstar86: ...
BrokenDragonSong: sarah got her piece out
BrokenDragonSong: and she said we a few times
BrokenDragonSong: soo i think that means you got beef with me
silentfilmstar86: oh come on
BrokenDragonSong: ? aight just wondering
BrokenDragonSong: sorry i offend just wanting to know
BrokenDragonSong: :-\?
silentfilmstar86: nothing
silentfilmstar86: sarah spoke her mind
BrokenDragonSong: what about your mind?
BrokenDragonSong: seems like you both have been avoiding me lately?
BrokenDragonSong: just wondering.
silentfilmstar86: it's not that
BrokenDragonSong: then what?
silentfilmstar86: I'm busy being an RA
silentfilmstar86: and Sarah has practicum
BrokenDragonSong: yeah i know however, this past week and a half
BrokenDragonSong: No biggie
BrokenDragonSong: just gonna play my game now
BrokenDragonSong: ttyl
silentfilmstar86: okay
silentfilmstar86: night
BrokenDragonSong: night
BrokenDragonSong: wait so am i an undecent person?
silentfilmstar86: what?
BrokenDragonSong: i reread the comment on xanga
silentfilmstar86: and?
BrokenDragonSong: and now i am kinda irritated.... i dont think there is anything wrong with me
BrokenDragonSong: i didnt mean to offend anyone
BrokenDragonSong: if i did i apologize however... it is in the past
silentfilmstar86: I know you don't
BrokenDragonSong: two times,
BrokenDragonSong: wow... and i do hang with joel on occasion
BrokenDragonSong: he is never in his room
BrokenDragonSong: and go to dinner with himn
BrokenDragonSong: *him
BrokenDragonSong: i have friends in Jackson
BrokenDragonSong: can make friends there
silentfilmstar86: People in Jackson don't count. They are in Jackson, not here
BrokenDragonSong: i talk to people in my freaking class... that is really it,
silentfilmstar86: She didn't say that you didn't talk to people in your classes.
BrokenDragonSong: well yeah she makes it seem that it is freaking easy to make friends which in some cases it is.
BrokenDragonSong: however,
BrokenDragonSong: i dunno
BrokenDragonSong: maybe it is me, but who is to say?
silentfilmstar86: David, me of all people know that's can be diifcult to make friends.
BrokenDragonSong: yeah, but i am a person that seems to be able to make friends or at least find someone to hang with
BrokenDragonSong: just doesnt seem to do that here
silentfilmstar86: well this is a different enviroment. Athens, is different than Jackson.
BrokenDragonSong: no duh. but still
BrokenDragonSong: i should know several people
silentfilmstar86: So, everyone doesn't know everyone. It isn't like in high school. Maybe you should join a student organization that meet your interest. Then you will find people to talk to.
BrokenDragonSong: i dont have any interests
BrokenDragonSong: not good enough to really join anything
silentfilmstar86: THAT'S NOT FUCKING TRUE
silentfilmstar86: there are plenty oraganization about anything at this school.
BrokenDragonSong: what they git here??
silentfilmstar86: pretty much anything. and if you don't find anything you like you can create an organization.
BrokenDragonSong: is there a site or something?
silentfilmstar86: yeah, on the OU website
silentfilmstar86: I think there is a link call organizations
BrokenDragonSong: there is nothing wrong with me.
BrokenDragonSong: right?
BrokenDragonSong: honest
silentfilmstar86: no, it's just that you need to think before you speak.
BrokenDragonSong: didnt think there was anything wrong with me... just wondering wtf. *nods*
silentfilmstar86: well, I'm going to bed
BrokenDragonSong: going to go for the RA bit... maybe
BrokenDragonSong: if i can keep my mouth shut
BrokenDragonSong: josh is staying in RIO
silentfilmstar86: i figured he would
BrokenDragonSong: if i cant keep my mouth shut
BrokenDragonSong: how could do the RA bit
silentfilmstar86: i don't think that was called for
BrokenDragonSong: ?
BrokenDragonSong: what called for?
silentfilmstar86: that "if I can keep my mouth shut" bit
BrokenDragonSong: well honestly
silentfilmstar86: well, I'm going to bed
BrokenDragonSong: night
silentfilmstar86: night

A conversation with David...

silentfilmstar86: My mom used an iron on my sister's hair before she got a hair staightener
silentfilmstar86: I secretly wanted her to burn Lisa's head.
BrokenDragonSong: O_O
silentfilmstar86: :-D
BrokenDragonSong: ... O_o
BrokenDragonSong: lol
BrokenDragonSong: damn
silentfilmstar86: tee hee

And another one...

silentfilmstar86: loo loo loo
BrokenDragonSong: =-O
BrokenDragonSong: apples = hatrid
BrokenDragonSong: *nods*
BrokenDragonSong: apples are the fruit of the devil
BrokenDragonSong: XD
BrokenDragonSong: and martha stewarts jams
silentfilmstar86: . . .
BrokenDragonSong: lol. martha stewart and shoving a chicken up her ass.
BrokenDragonSong: XD yay south park
silentfilmstar86: what?
BrokenDragonSong: lol the episode where they poop out their mouths
silentfilmstar86: OOOOOOOOOOH

I need a boy. *sigh* I need someone to makeout with. That's my problem. I need something. *sigh*

So tonight was the first of a three day duty weekend. I had my first alcohol confrontaion. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. I know I'll be more comfortable with the next one. It was funny though, Ill never listen to Spice Girls the same again. Stefanie and I had a few other close calls, but not enough evidence to do anything about it. Alas, I am very tired. Then when I come back to my room I have an IM from the other RA on my floor [David] saying there is poop in the men's bathroom, just inside the door. *sigh* So I deal with that, rather nicely I must say.

So I'm going to try to finish the Charlie Chaplin film [The Gold Rush] I've been watching whilst I've been in my room. I'm opening the doors tomorrow morning, so I really must go to bed. I think Charlie can wait....I'm going to bed now.

So I'm really proud at some of my residents. They are awesome to the extreme! We started making our floor section banner for East Green Games. It's going to rock hardcore.

Um, I should be reading my chapters for Sociology but I have no will power. Don't worry, I'll do it sooner or later. Key word "later". And by later, I mean much later. Like tomorrow morning later.

[Person A]: So how are classes going, Sarah?
[Me]: They are going just peachy keen.
[Person A]: Please explain!
Spanish: I'm actually enjoying that class very much. Mostly because I know what my professor is saying. Yeah, 3 years of high school Spanish will do that to you.
Film: Its a littler boring. Not because it's the history of film, but only because it takes us like the entire 2 hours to go over the same thing. We aren't going fast enough in my opinion. There is no way we can get through the entire history of film in 10 weeks. So why are we still on the development of the first films and it's week 2!
TV/Film Comedy: I heard this was the best class ever. I have yet to be proven that. It's a really great class, I just would like it to live up to it's expectations. Tonight was my second class. We talked about Vaudville and watched some silent films which I found very delightful. Especially the Charlie Chaplin ones. Yes, I've recently been interested in watching silent films. I find them quite exciting, dispite the fact that there is no dialogue. I've recently become a fan of Charlie Chaplin films as well. I rented Modern Times from the library a couple of nights ago and enjoyed it very much. Tomorrow I shall go back to the library and get a couple more Chaplin films.
Sociology: I really don't know what to think about this class. It's interesting don't get me wrong. It's just I don't want to be in there for 2 hours. That's a long time to keep my attention span on one thing. Tomorrow we are getting the information for our first paper. It's not due until October 3rd, but since I have duty all weekend, I'm going to at least start it. That way I'm not in a mad rush to get it done the night of October 2nd/ morning of October 3rd. I can't slack off this quarter. I'll try not to procrastinate. [That feat will be very hard.]

The staff. [The front row] Molly, Keith, Angela, Kit [Second row] David, Ashley, Bethany, Leslie Jo, Stefanie, ME, Adam, Nicci [Last row] Katie, Kevin, Joe, Scott, Nic

The W/B staff again. HOLLA!!!

 

What a lazy, wastful day. Sundays always run really slow, and I hate it. Well, tonight will at least be a little busy. I have scheduled a floor section meeting at 7pm and then W/B Complex Council is at 9pm. I've decided I'm going to have my residents do roommate agreements because there already a problem brewing. That's my final word on that. I also have to do community agreements. That will be fun. *sarcasm* Eh, I don't think it will be that bad, but still, it's a hassel. Plus I have to get a floor government together. I hope that won't be too hard.

I hope complex council will go smoothly and that a lot of people show up. Smoothly is the key word for the night. I read my T-Com chapters. Go me! Now, if only I could read my Sociology and Spanish...and Film. Then life would be complete. I get paid next Friday, though it still won't be enough to buy my Spanish books, Perhaps I'll buy my two remaining Sociology books.

Classes have gone okay. I really like them, I just don't want to go. Is that bad? I think my attitude could pose a problem if it gets worse. I'm really excited about my Spanish class. I'm really happy that I know a lot of what she's saying. Which is good considering our second day of class there's no more english. :-) Go team me!

I went to Shively Markget to use some on my meal plans. After last night, I refuse to wait until Saturday. Nelson was so packed. Then they refused to let me buy anything because it was like 7:01pm and they close at 7pm. I was right at the counter too. What pissed me off even more wa that some stupid freshman girl tried to buy stuff with her meal plan and she doesn't have a super and she kept wondering why it wouldn't let to buy anything. My God, freshmen are dumb! Especially this year's. I was so pissed that I threw the shirt that I was going to buy at the counter and walked off with the twenty or so other pissed students. Yeah, you better believe that I flipped off Snack Attack...numerous times. If I had like 1 meal plan left on there, I wouldn't have minded...but I had $17.40 left on there, that was just thrown away. I'm getting pissed just thinking about it. So now I have 14 meals left for the week, which is good. I only eat like twice a day, if that.

I'm in a pissy mood. I'm pissed at myself because I don't have the over $200 to get all of my books and I won't for like another month or so. It doesn't help that I just had to pay an $18.60 library fine, because the damn library let me go that far. Grrrrrrr. So I can't do my homework and if I don't start doing my homework now, I won't want to later in the quarter. Little things are also starting to piss me off. I won't name anything, or anyone. I just to go into a little dark closet and scream until I taste blood in my throat.

I'm trying to calm myself down by listening to a little Beethoven. It's seems to be doing a good job.

Yes, it most certainly has been awhile since my last update. To be honest there just aren't enough hours in the day to get everything done. I've always hated having to update over a long period of time. i always feel like I'm missing something. Details are more hazy and that's how I like to "write" my journal entries. The more details, the more I'll remember them when my memory is completely gone. At the rate it's going, that won't be too long.

So, I'm back in Athens. I love it here. It's so much better than Jackson. And yes, the 30-some odd miles between the two makes a big difference. There's not the same pettiness like in Jackson. The town is slightly bigger and with an much higher population. I guess I like Athens because that the closest I'm getting to a big city while in Southern Ohio. Sad, I know.

I can't wait to graduate OU though. Then I can move to a real city. Perhaps back to Philadelphia. That would be nice. I'll never have to live in Ohio again. Life will be sweet. I'll be much closer to my family. Though, I really don't know if I want that. My family is so...how can I say it? A little disfunctional? Yes, I believe that is the correct word for it. I swear, my family is like living in Jackson. Small petty problems and gossip domenate family reunons. That why I'm glad i don't go anymore. I can't handle what they say about my mom and sister. Wow, I really got off track, didn't I? I guess it's the A.D.D.

So being an RA is the most awesome thing ever! I love my job. The entire Washington/Bush staff is awesome. They were so nice when I arrived on the 23rd of August. We all became really close within like a couple days of knowing eachother. I couldn't ask for better people to work with everyday. My floor section is going really well. I mean know problems yet. Okay, so I told a little fib. There was this key issue is room 234. It's a double, and only on of the roommates had a key. So I told Ashley like the Friday I got here and she turned that all in. Well, both roommates are moved in and there is still only one key. Now, about three day after both have been here, and yep, you've guessed it there is still only one key. Now I'm kind of stressing over it and Ashley is stressing over it. Well, the mother of one of the roommates knocks on my door and she is clearly upset. I mean, who wouldn't be? So she's asking all these questions that I can't answer so I try calling Leslie Jo and there is no answer. So I call Nicci and ask her if she would come over to the staff office. That made me so stressed out on someting that wasn't my fault. That wasn't the best part of my day. Other than that, everything is nice. No noise problems, no alcohol problems, nothing. I pray to God that it stays this way.

So right now I'm on duty. It's been pretty uneventful. Which I guess is great because nothing bad is happening, but it's so quiet down here. Barely anyone is passing through. They're all mostly out on Court St. and what not. Angela and I did 8pm rounds. It was uneventful, except for asking residents to not have their bed ends in the hallway and not to have their trash can's out in the hall. See? Nothing too horrible. And that's the way it should be. I wish it could be like that forever, but I know chances are that something will happen either tonight or next weekend. It's a sure thing.

So I'm trying to kill the next 35 minutes until I get to close the staff office and go on 10pm rounds with Angela. I perdict that midnight rounds will be fun *sarcasm*


*EDIT*
I just noticed that I began four of my paragraphs with the word "so". I hate doing that!

I just was talking to Sarah. That made me happy. She's packing to take a trip to Columbus tomorrow. Lucky her, she gets to see Phantom Of The Opera! It was nice to talk to her. It made me feel better, and it reminded me that I still have friends that are outside of Jackson. I can't wait until Tuesday! I found this on a Xanga and though it suited me very well.


The Procrastinator's Creed:

1. I believe that if anything is worth doing, it would have been done already.
2. I shall never move quickly, except to avoid more work or find excuses.
3. I will never rush into a job without a lifetime of consideration.
4. I shall meet all of my deadlines directly in proportion to the amount of bodily injury I could expect to receive from missing them.
5. I firmly believe that tomorrow holds the possibility for new technologies, astounding discoveries, and a reprieve from my obligations.
6. I truly believe that all deadlines are unreasonable regardless of the amount of time given.
7. I shall never forget that the probability of a miracle, though infinitesmally small, is not exactly zero.
8. If at first I don't succeed, there is always next year.
9. I shall always decide not to decide, unless of course I decide to change my mind.
10. I shall always begin, start, initiate, take the first step, and/or write the first word, when I get around to it.
11. I obey the law of inverse excuses which demands that the greater the task to be done, the more insignificant the work that must be done prior to beginning the greater task.
12. I know that the work cycle is not plan/start/finish, but is wait/plan/plan.
13. I will never put off until tomorrow, what I can forget about forever.
14. I will become a member of the ancient Order of Two-Headed Turtles (the Procrastinator's Society) if they ever get it organized.

The first step is admitting you have a problem. Everyone knows I'm a jealous person by nature. I always have been. But lately, I don't know, it's been really bad. I mean, maybe it's because David going up to OU and Catherine is all like "oh no, what will we do with David gone. He will be so far away." What? First of all, Athens is what forty minutes at the most away from Jackson. Second of all, is David the first one in our group to move away from Jackson? No. Hello? Who was up in Athens last year? *raises hand* Oh, it just really pisses me off. Am I not important enough to be missed? Guess not.